Believing in a Religion Was Just Too Limiting For Me

So was atheism for that matter

I don’t know why I do it.

I make a statement about my own beliefs, like “I Don’t believe in God” or “Religion is harmful,” and inevitably instead of accepting my belief or non belief, Christians have to respond back with their little platitudes like, “Oh, but he believes in you,” and, “Maybe you haven’t found the right religion, mine is not like that at all. It is the One true religion!”

On the other end of the spectrum, with the exception of a few open-minded atheists, when I write something like “I don’t believe in God but I’m not an atheist,” or “I still feel like there is some intelligence to the universe,” I get some very angry comments from the godless who don’t like hearing someone question their own thinking and the idea of disbelief of disbelief.

The thing is, whether you believe in God or subscribe to a religion or you are a staunch atheist who can be heard saying things like “there is no scientific evidence of a God,” I still feel like both systems of belief are limiting.

The Question of Religion

The universe in old and massive, and even if you could make the journey of 225 trillion years to the edge, it would have already expanded to infinity by that point. The puny human mind cannot yet fathom anything of that scope and magnitude.

Sure, scientists study the universe, and the concept of the multiverse, but we are dealing with a scale so massive it is beyond even human comprehension. Even some scientists, in a bid to understand the unfathomable, have turned to belief in a God or supernatural entity to explain how something such as this can even exist.

“The Multiverse is the idea that our Universe, and all that’s contained within it, is just one small part of a larger structure. This larger entity encapsulates our observable Universe as a small part of a larger Universe that extends beyond the limits of our observations. That entire structure — the unobservable Universe — may itself be part of a larger spacetime that includes many other, disconnected Universes, which may or may not be similar to the Universe we inhabit.” — Forbes

But, as I said before, the idea of an omnipotent being creating everything 8000 years ago and controlling even a portion of what we can see with the naked eye is limiting and laughable.

Since the beginning of the time since humans could form a thought with their undeveloped brains, it is a given they have assigned power to a being greater than “they” to explain the things they saw that they couldn’t comprehend. It’s easier to create fables than to understand the true nature of something, and humans are good at assigning things supernatural as having human forms.

They build their beliefs into religions and systems they would eagerly shun their family for. They seek others to tell about their religion. And if their message is not accepted at face-value, they cleanse and kill until all that is left is the believers.

I grew up in a religion that brainwashed it’s believers with a system of beliefs that were never to be challenged, Free thought and an open mind were evil things, and if you disagreed with anything you were branded an apostate.

My mind has been unique since I could form a sentence. I acknowledged my disbelief in religion at a young age, but was mart enough to understand if I wanted to survive in the cold, dark world, I would have to pretend I did, in fact, believe everything they told me.

I believed until the chaos in my mind wouldn’t allow for fiction and fables and I went my own way, which turned out to be to science and philosophy.

People in my religion studied only the books that were published by a governing body and nothing else. But I lived in a library, and devoured encyclopedias and science textbooks.

Which led me to the other end of the spectrum.

Atheists are Smug

Atheists are much better because they do value an open mind, but because humans crave to be part of something bigger than themselves, if another person believes anything slightly differently than they do, they are dismissed and insulted out of hand.

I’ve had a hard time acknowledging that we are alone in the universe. It’s hard to swallow that something as unimaginable as the universe or multiverse exists and my mind struggled to make sense of it all.

Not happy with another person keeping an open mind and discovering truth within themselves in their own time, I was mansplained, browbeaten, and talked down because I chose my beliefs to remain fluid. For some atheists, if you don’t fully accept your disbelief, you are unintelligent and ignorant, and not worthy of treating with respect.

In my short time identifying as an atheist, I found most of the hardcore brethren were fine as long as you didn’t question the core ideals, much like their Christian counterparts, and I’d already had enough of stubborn old, white men telling me what I should and shouldn’t believe.

Every day I try to stretch my mind to conceive of the concept of an endless universe, time, and the fact that the humans that inhabit such a minuscule part of it can be so stubborn and pigheaded.

I for one won’t settle on any belief that is limiting. Is there an all-powerful being controlling everything? The science seems to point to no, but we cannot be 100% sure. We can’t even prove that we are not living in a simulation right now.

But with computer technology growing at such as atronomical rate, quantum computers and artificial intelligence may find out the answers before our human cluttered mind can.

We just have to ensure that we don’t limit ourselves to one system of belief or unbelief. We need to be ready to accept the outcome when the answers finally become clear.

So I try to teach my kids to have open mind and not fall into the trap of believing for the sake of belonging, and working diligently to find out the true nature of the universe.

We may never know the truth, but we shouldn’t settle for the convenient just to believe in something.

It is rather limiting.

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