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Jason Weiland
Introverted essayist and creator- I am doing it my way and it might take a bit longer. Don't wait up!

Are you sure this thing is not butter, because damn this thing is as smooth as the creamy stuff

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I am new to this whole tech review thing. I don’t have a long history in technology, gadgets, software development, or computer hardware. I used to be a web designer, graphic artist…


At least I can still write about the shitshow

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I thought if I took a week away from work, and just immersed myself in books, reading, music, and movies, I would come out the other side with a greater understanding of what I should be spending my time doing.

By the end of the week, I was suicidally depressed and questioning everything I have ever known.

I cringe when I read my entry for yesterday, but it was truly what I was feeling. …


It is as simple as starting to do something right now to make changes

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I spend a lot of time writing about the evils of toxic capitalism. If you asked me how to get rid of it, I may have said anything from “eating the rich” and breaking up the monopolies to redistributing wealth throughout the world.

Somewhere in there is always a need for revolution, where the government is overthrown and a new system is put into place.

But when you are talking about changes as big as that, you have to understand just who is in charge and who has the resources to ensure that they get to keep hoarding their wealth…


And I should never wonder again why I will never be happy

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Why do I even bother?

I thought a week would be enough for me to finally get a handle on what it is that I want to be doing creatively. I thought I could also figure out a solution to the question of what I can do to earn more money.

So far this week, all I learned is that I (me) am the reason why I am so confused and torn and it makes those things seem a bit foolish right now.

There are few constants in my life. One is that as much as I would like my…


The tech that I use for writing, video, and audio production

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*Disclosure: I only recommend products I would use myself and all opinions expressed here are my own. In an effort to reach the widest possible audience, I have not metered this post and you do not need a Medium membership to read, so I hope you won’t mind that it may contain affiliate links, so that at no additional cost to you, I may earn a small commission.

Show a brother some love!

I’ve always been a frugal person, and by that, I mean I’ve always been broke, so I tend to be a cheapskate. …


I thought this #gapweek thing would be restful and invigorating, but instead, it’s turned into an exercise of futility. I live in a house where any kind of downtime is seen as laziness, and even something as simple as resting and enjoying a bit of music is cause for nagging and anger.

If I am not constantly moving or looking like I am doing something like work I am worthless, and the sad thing is, the voices in my head have taken it upon themselves to add their commentary.

Moron, loser, lazy, worthless, idiot…that is what I am now because…


What would you do if you had a week to immerse yourself in creativity?

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I am sitting at a crossroads, unsure whether I should turn right, left, or continue straight ahead in the direction I’ve been going.

The dust settles — the engine idles.

Others pass going either direction, never stopping, seemingly sure with the journey they have chosen. Some have the GPS on and the cruise control set, others go driverless, at ease because they have all the time and resources they could ever want. Some fly pants-less, on fire, but sure of the direction they want to go.

Still, I sit, afraid to step on the accelerator and commit to a direction.

11:30 PM — My Desk


Chris Farley never gave it a chance, but I would love to

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Growing up in the USA, one of my dreams was to travel. Unlike many smaller countries, the U.S. affords a place to get lost in and find mountains, oceans, lakes, forests, quaint villages, and wide-open spaces.

Sure, I wanted to see the world, but first I wanted to have an RV and travel all 50 states to see what there was to see. Sure, I’ve been all over the country in my life, but I’ve only ever seen enough to make me want to see more.

But I never got to do it. Closest I ever came was a 2-day…


Starting as a new tech reviewer on YouTube is a lot of work

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I’ve been going back and forth about what I want the subject of my YouTube channel to be. It all started as a podcast, where I planned to read my Medium articles and essays and talk about what went into writing each piece.

But if Medium is any indication, nobody is interested in my writing except for me and my 10 true fans. I decided I would do a podcast because I had this bullshit idea that I was too ugly for YouTube, but I decided that, hideous or not, I really wanted to make video.

Then I thought I…


I must believe I learned all this stuff for a reason

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I envy people who can pick one thing and stick with it. The only thing I ever did long enough to do well was writing, and it makes me hope I can finally settle down and stop jumping from one thing to another.

But my mind wants me to keep searching. Even though I write every day and love everything about it, for some reason I am not being allowed to stop and focus. …

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