My trip home was a long ordeal — November has been a busy month. It started as a trip to the United States to see my kids and mom and dad. It ended, defeated at 2 am in the morning, sitting through another 17-hour layover in Narita in Tokyo. I slept for a time on a tucked-away bench…

Will I ever come back? — Travel time is almost upon me, and I find myself anxious. It’s been a long time since I have been anywhere, and I am not used to being away from my family. But, at 54, I need to be a big boy and pull up my trousers and head into…

After six years, I am finally returning — While you might think I flipped my lid and decided to finally stop the nonsense talk and move to the United States, I didn’t. In two weeks, I am flying out of the Philippines to spend three weeks with my kids. This was a spur-of-the-moment thing and since I had…

Change is good — I am fond of saying, “life is meaningless without change” and I mean it. Change is responsible for many of the things that make my life worthwhile: I could have stayed depressed, broke, and lonely for the rest of my life in America, but instead, I moved to the Philippines…

Never a dull moment I wake groggy and confused, neck stiff from burning the midnight oil the night before writing essays and editing video. But I can’t afford to enjoy the cool conditioned air lying about in bed. My son has therapy this morning, and we have to leave the…

Once I got used to looking at my own face, it was a blast — Now that I have been showing my face on my channel every day, it is getting much easier to look at myself. …

I took the plunge — So, after years of hemming and hawing, I finally started doing talking head videos. Well, I actually have two channels. One is my main one, the one I spend most of my time working on. …

What is success? — When I talk or write about it, I always add the caveat that success means different things to different people. For some, money is the true sign of success, while others just want fulfillment. For me, it’s a combination of the two because I feel like fulfillment will come when…

I don’t know how much more of this I can take — If I never have another day of anxiety like I did today, I will be a happy man. From the moment I opened my eyes until I sit here now writing the story of my day from hell, I’ve been ripped apart inside by anxiety and fear. Anxiety is nothing…